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May. 18th, 2011 @ 05:28 pm (no subject)
Shout like this is the last time,
your vocal chords will ever work.

Scream like this is the first time
you've ever been burned.

Cry like this is the only time,
you'll ever make love.
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a wreck
May. 7th, 2010 @ 03:49 pm I love this song.
where are we?
what the hell is going on?
the dust has only just begun to form
crop circles in the carpet
sinking feeling

spin me round again
and rub my eyes,
this can't be happening
when busy streets a mess with people
would stop to hold their heads heavy

hide and seek
trains and sewing machines
all those years
they were here first

oily marks appear on walls
where pleasure moments hung before the takeover,
the sweeping insensitivity of this still life

hide and seek
trains and sewing machines (oh, you won't catch me around here)
blood and tears (hearts)
they were here first

Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmmm that it's all for the best?
of course it is
Mmmm whatcha say?
Mmmm that it's just what we need
you decided this
whatcha say?
Mmmm what did she say?

ransom notes keep falling out your mouth
mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut outs
speak no feeling no I don't believe you
you don't care a bit,
you don't care a bit

(hide and seek)
ransom notes keep falling out your mouth
mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut outs

(hide and seek)
speak no feeling no i don't believe you
you don't care a bit,
you don't care a (you don't care a) bit

(hide and seek)
oh no, you don't care a bit
oh no, you don't care a bit

(hide and seek)
oh no, you don't care a bit
you don't care a bit
you don't care a bit
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a wreck
May. 1st, 2010 @ 10:10 pm (no subject)
I really hate it when people say "You don't know me." Especially if its a close friend I've had for a while. I used to know you, back before everything you had planned for yourself became army and drinking and frats. I used to know a you who was open, honest, happy. You'd call me up, send me a text, talk to me for hours about nothing and yet saying so much. And now? Now I'm lucky to get a drunk text every few months. Its disturbing. I miss my friend. I wish I knew what had happened. After I made the mistake of giving up on us so quickly you fell away. I almost wish we had never kissed. You say "She doesnt know me. She thinks she does, but she doesnt." So where does that leave me? I've always been there for you. Always, whether you knew it or not. Standing on the sidelines trying to cheer you on, cheer you up. All I ever wanted to do was make you smile. But now, its snide remarks. I dont know why you're hiding. I think you're afraid of what you've done. The choices you made werent the right ones, or at least werent the ones that made you the happiest. We all make mistakes. I think you taught me that. Now you just hide behind your excessive drinking, your jokes. Take those away and what do I see? Nothing. I think you're the hollow one. Not me. I'm trying to find my way. so what if I'm sad? So what if I hate my life sometimes. Isnt that a part of living? Dont sneer at me, dont mock what I say. I mean goddamnit I'm just trying to reach you again. There's been a lot of doors slammed in my face but I think its hurts the worst when its you.
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a wreck
Apr. 30th, 2010 @ 09:52 pm (no subject)
Should I admit that my promise is counterfeit? That I'm careless and childish? And thats all I can hope to be. And would you concede that I think only of myself? that I refuse everybody's help who has been reaching out to me?

Uuuuuggghhhh I just feel so shitty. I havent felt this messed up since middle school. What a pain. I'm glad to have my best friend back. She always listened and tried to understand. She never judged or if she did she did it quietly. I just need a sign.
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Apr. 14th, 2010 @ 09:54 am (no subject)
I just cant seem to get over how slowly everything moves. But I suppose I'd be disappointed if it all flew by me and I missed something. But I guess I'm ready to start fresh. I'm hopeful and terrified.
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a wreck
Oct. 6th, 2009 @ 01:19 am Fickle Sands
The air you breathe is stifled,
Like breathing in the desert, there is no life.
How can you live without oxygen?
Life does not lend itself to suffocation.
And love...love lends itself to nothing at all.
Some say love is like oxygen,
But I think love is like the sand.
It’s hot and soft when you scoop it into your hands,
And try desperately to hold on and keep it close.
It slips slowly through your fingers,
And blows away in the wind,
Clouding your eyes and making them red and angry.
Your eyes were brown before they were red…
Though I hardly remember.
Love wears away at the bone,
and strips all mortal coil from the soul.
Love is the mirage,
A comforting vision and a promise unfulfilled.
The illusion is only broken,
when life is ceased.


(WORK IN PROGRESS)
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a wreck
Sep. 17th, 2009 @ 02:42 pm (no subject)
OK, so I know this person who has been in a relationship a while with someone they supposedly love. Lately he/she has been getting pretty heavy on the flirting with someone else. Now, is it wrong for me to ask he/she is the two have gotten together? Not in a rude manner or anything, its a simple question. I think it was VERY rude of he/she to call me presumptuous, and gossipy and saying I am trying to start shit when I very clearly am not. I feel bad of the significant other, I really do. You shouldnt go around saying such things to someone you're not in love with. Ah well. I think its stupid and now I know why they wont hang out with me and a few other friends. We might get the wrong "idea" about whats happening. To hell with that drama.
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a wreck
Sep. 16th, 2009 @ 07:26 am (no subject)
INSTALLING A HUSBAND

Dear Tech Support,

Last year I upgraded from Boyfriend 5.0 to Husband 1.0 and noticed a distinct slow down in overall system performance, particularly in the flower and jewelry applications, which operated flawlessly under Boyfriend 5.0.

In addition, Husband 1.0 uninstalled many other valuable programs, such as
Romance 9.5 and Personal Attention 6.5, and then installed undesirable programs such as

NBA 5.0,
NFL 3.0 and
Golf Clubs 4.1.

Conversation 8.0 no longer runs, and Housecleaning 2.6 simply crashes the system.

Please note that I have tried running Nagging 5.3 to fix these problems, but to no avail.

What can I do?

Signed,

Desperate.



DEAR DESPERATE,

First, keep in mind,
Boyfriend 5.0 is an Entertainment Package, while
Husband 1.0 is an operating system.

Please enter command: ithoughtyoulovedme.html, try to download Tears 6.2, and do not forget to install the Guilt 3.0update.

If those applications work as designed, Husband 1.0 should then automatically run theapplications Jewelry 2.0 and Flowers 3.5.

However, remember, overuse of the above application can cause Husband 1.0 to default to

Grumpy Silence 2.5, Happy Hour 7.0, or Beer 6.1.
Please note that Beer 6.1 is a very bad program that will download the Farting and Snoring Loudly Beta.

Whatever you do, DO NOT under any circumstances install Mother-In-Law 1.0 (it runs a virus in the background that will eventually seize control of all your system resources.)

In addition, please do not attempt to reinstall the Boyfriend 5.0-program. This is an unsupported application and will crash Husband 1.0.

In summary, Husband 1.0 is a great program, but it does have limited memory and cannot learn new applications quickly.. You might consider buying additional software to improve memory and performance. We recommend
Cooking 3.0 and
Hot Lingerie 7.7.

Good Luck!

Tech Support
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a wreck
Aug. 25th, 2009 @ 11:58 pm (no subject)
Ugh, I feel so crappy and dizzy right now. >_< I know I should be trying to sleep but I just lay down and my head spins and I feel like I cant breath. I think I just hate sleeping alone. I get too paranoid that I'm gonna die in my sleep or something. I dont think I'm well. My stomach hurts too much hahaha. I wish someone would respond to me, so I could talk, and calm down but nobody seems to answer their phone. Or maybe I'm texting the wrong people. Ugh. Classes are gonna be time consuming but relatively easy I presume.
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a wreck
Apr. 15th, 2009 @ 04:58 pm (no subject)
Sometimes I wonder just what is going through peoples heads when they open their mouths to speak. Honestly...Why do I have to suffer for shit people cant just tell the truth about? I dont get half as pissed off at people telling me the truth than I do at people who lie. I always find out...always. Just tell me the goddamn truth already or I'm gonna walk away and not come back next time. KTHNXBYE
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